theclumsyninja

So long winter.  

BioShock Infinite is such a trip.  
Been writing and reading more (yay!).
Still working on my art.  

Job's been keeping me real busy; that and school.  Its funny, now that I have a job, I miss all the free time I had.

Here's to hopes and dreams.

Life...

So full of possibilities, yet so empty.

College graduate, yet jobless and living at home with my parents, siblings, and dogs.  Longing for that email/phone call that takes me away from this place and into independence; living on my own, setting my own rules, not having to worry about getting yelled at for being on the computer or playing video games.

For when the world stops bickering at each other.

For when humanity returns to space and sets foot on the moon again, or another planet.

Every day is the same; some day it all will change.

Some day.

For those of you who haven't heard, go to YouTube and watch the new 'official' trailer for Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim.  And when you do, set it to the highest resolution, full screen it, and crank up the volume.


Yea.  Its that   good.


Now, onto the main point:

Thanks to a good friend of mine, I've finally come up with enough ideas to start my novel.  Right now its a short story (~14.5k words) that I wrote for my school's English Dept. writing contest.  I love how it turned out and I am looking forward to expanding it into novel length...maybe it'll even get published!

So, the new painting I'm working on is a scene from the story, but unlike previous paintings, all the detail is in the background.

Hopefully it will be as good as it is in my head.

Being a college student, and getting a B.S. in Environmental Science leaves little room for developing a skill that I have always wanted to do: digital painting.

I have always had a creative side, but its overshadowed by the scientific side of me.  I love science; nature, life, space, technology, the whole shebang...just not chemistry...I loathe chemistry.

I was never a good artist when I was younger.  I had a passion and drive to do it and get better, but I never actually worked towards it.  I put it on the backburner and hoped to get to it later in life, as I have done with other creative things.  I guess I had always hoped that I would pick it up quick and be decent overnight.  My dad always tells me that no one is hold my hand and help me through trials or get things handed to me on a platter.  I had to work for it.

Its taken far too long for this to sink in, and now that I have access to a Wacom tablet, thanks to my awesome roommate, and endless resources thanks to the internet, I hope to finally achieve my dream as developing digital painting as one of my hobbies that I am actually decent at.

I probably won't become very good at it, good enough to sell my works at a convention or develop a career based on my works, but make it a hobby and a skill I can be proud of.  Sure it would be nice to gain some recognition and have some faithful followers and gain the favor of the professionals or those close to it.

I just hope that unlike some of my other dreams and aspirations, this one actually comes true.